in joy & sorrow

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I..

I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh
All I want inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Un-harmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me, I..

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got!

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got

A song tht keeps me prevailed from my impediments. Thanks to the used for this fuckin great song. I guess we're not perfect, so we do made mistakes ryt. So im sorry for every single thing. This 19 yrs had brought to me lots of experiences in going through the journey called life. I've made lots of friends and enemies as well i guess(i hope not). LOL. And thanks to all who are always thre for me especially, cath, juria, fuzzie, fir n the rest of the CLiCKs, kimberley, reesh, nishy, illya, alyaa, hanif, nadjwa & faris. It means a lot to me and i really2 appreciated it guys. Thanks. =D. Lastly, i hope everything will turn out well as i want it to be. Shiieettt, I hate this part right here.

mirul

hands held high

Daarrnnn, tht song is stucked in my head. With hands held high, into a sky so blue, as the ocean opens up, to swallow you. Ahahahha. Well life been great so far except for uia. Hectic as usual. Pffttt. Im on holiday atm, but friggin assignment are keeping me away from it. Shhiiittt. Its been 3 days, & I've been sitting home doin all these shitt, especially drawing. The best subj ever. I wish. Ahahhaha. So updates huh?? Nutin much act, just normal lame story tho. Wake up, eat, play, internet, sleep. LOL. Studies are good i guess. Hahahaha. Mid term comin up in few days. WTF so fastt. I dnt even realised what hv i been studying for the last couple weeks. Shiieeettt I need to do well. Study mirul study!!

Yaaa, radiohead & paramore r performin live on sunburst. Need to go. Huhuhuhu.

I'm damn bored now. Someone made me wait. =/.

after midnight

Errr. Where do i start? Hmmmmmm. Okayyy. First and for most, happy two zero zero nine. =D. New resolution. Do well in every single thing. Fyi I've started my first year degree. Gombak. Its been 2 or 3 weeks. Overall the place was ok. The food is awesome. Various of choices tho. Lots of international students. Mainly from middle-east. Some are really huge. LOL. Got Man, Acap & Fattah as roommates and classmates as well. Ahahahhaa. However, the distance to our classes are like so far. It took us like 20 minutes to walk which we didn't do that often. We alternately drive to campus. So orientation was pretty boring tho. Lalalalalaa. I took 9 subj this sem. Hope I can finish asap. Insy. Hmm what else?? Thinking thinking. Ahahaha.

Moving on, attended few lectures atm. Most of my lecturers are foreigners. Great. New experiences and some funny accent to be shared (somebody, as for today n etc). LOL. Besides that, every classes are packed, one class its like 60-70 students. Daymmn. (this sentence has been removed due to some circumstances) Ahahhahaha. LOL. Okayy So thats pretty much for a few weeks tho. Nothing really great happened besides Im gettin distracted in class. Pffftttttt.

Apart from that, I would like to share some interesting facts which i think some of you had read or heard it somewhere. Its bout the term LOVE. Love is like everywhere. Its related to everything tho. As you can see most of the themes for movies, songs, novels n so forth are nothing else but love. So there are few type of love which defines it. Ehem. LOL. Okayy. First fact : If you love someone because you think he or she is really gorgeous, then it is not love, its "Infatuation". Secondly : if you love some one because you think that you shouldn't leave him because others think that you shouldn't, then it's not love it's "Compromise". Then, if you love some one because you have been kissed by him or her, then it's not love it's "Inferiority complex". In addition, if you love some one because you cannot leave him or her thinking that it would hurt his or her feelings, then it's not love it's "Charity". Besides, if you love some one because you share every thing with him or her, then it's not love it's "Friendship". Apparently, If you feel the pain of the other person more than him or her even when he or she is stable and you cry for him or her, if you get attracted to other people but stay with him or her without any regrets and if you let him or her go knowing that he or she has to go but he or she doesn't want to that's "LOVE". From my point of view, everyone fall for the first category tho which is infatuation.Well, love is not like anything, especially a fucking knife. Jk. Even freaks need love.

Finders Keepers
Daaaaa~